Dear J.C,

Thank You for this week =)

This week the morning Mass in Carmelite started at 6.15am instead of 6.30am. After all the trials and spiritual warfare, it finally happened. Sometimes, I feel guilty too. The old folks, St. Joe's students, everyone who normally goes to the Mass at 6.30, has to wake up early every morning to make it in time. And we all Chung Hua-ians only like, 3 people? Sometimes it's just me alone. It's like me against the world. I hope surely, to find more Soldier of Christ, slowly, one step at a time. God is clearly not in a hurry :) 

SPM is so freaking early! 5th November? You kidding me, right? Goodness, jeez. Fo shizzle ma nizzle, I'm not even ready yet. Hey so! What's everybody's plan for Valentine's? :D Wanna hear mine? Okay, if you insist. Well this Tuesday, on a lovely St. Valentine's day... I'm having.... 

Bible Class with Aunty. 

I've always been hopelessly in love with you.

How can you fail to see that?

press pause.

This has been a tough week.. And it's not even Sunday yet. I just need a break from everything that has happened. I had it rough but this is the roughest I ever had. I should never complain of what the world is throwing at me because no matter what, the only thing that I should care about is me and Him.

But really, no matter how many times I tried to get all the words that you said to me the other night out of my head, it will always come right back. That was the the first time I heard all those things from you. My insecurities creeping up again in me, and I start to ask myself, am I really that... haih, never mind.

I should try to remember that every time the waves are washing all over me. 

for real.

'Cos there's a side to you that I never knew :)

It's finally over.

You have to stand the rain to get the rainbow. 

- A wise friend.

one of those days.

There's a hero

When you look inside your heart

You don't have to be afraid of what you are

There's an answer

If you reach into your soul

And the sorrow that you know will melt away

And then a hero comes along

With the strength to carry on

And you cast your fears aside

And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong

And you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you

It's a long road

And you face the world alone

No one reaches out a hand

For you to hold

You can find love

If you search within yourself

And the emptiness you felt will disappear

Lord knows 

Dreams are hard to follow

But don't let anyone

Tear them away

And then a hero comes along

With the strength to carry on

And you cast your fears aside

And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong

And you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you.

Hero.

Through the nails, through the thorns

From the hill to the grave;

Was a voice in the distance the lamb that was slain.

My soul had no song and debt I couldn't pay

 When I needed a Hero, You came and You saved.

Back to reality.

School is starting again tomorrow. Aish bye Chinese New Year. Time flies when you're having fun. I miss all my friends already. I miss how Adeline would be "eksen cute", but I meet her everyday in school so who cares. I'll miss how Velen would be so bimbo about everything. I'll miss how Eli would say "kanji". I'll miss how Nick would say "hey what's that on your face" when he spots a zit. I'll miss the way Clinton drove that time and that face he makes when tried to swallow his Big Mac. I'll miss how Jessven would say "Hey angel, you duh sexy." I'll miss how Victor would be all ghetto. And you, Aaron... I'll just miss YOU. Haha you know it's true.

Here's to the pathetic, boring, sad life in school.

EOF ;)

Some people: Ask Tracy lah. She kan your best friend?

Adeline: NO. She's not my best friend. She's my Extra-ordinary friend. 

=)

He loves me anyway :)